When I was in my teens and twenties, I thought I will have at least partially figured out my life once I reach thirty. But here we are. I learned a thing or two, but I still have a long way to go.
While my friends both online and in real life are out getting married and having families, as what society usually finds natural, I’ve been traveling and building my career. After some internal struggle, I have finally accepted that I am going this route and that it is a choice I made. Not to say that I don’t want a family, heck, my ultimate goal is to be a successful housewife (seriously!). But this is what I have right now, and this what I will work with– a successful career.
So where am I going with this? In 2018, I made the choice to get my MBA and though that slowed down my travels, it did give me a chance to live abroad. During this year, I also started writing Coming Home, as I was navigating my thoughts on being far from home but not exactly traveling. My MBA life is a whole other story. Right after my graduation, the pandemic happened. Everything that keeps me sane, I cannot do– traveling, surfing, and diving. The pandemic forced me to stay indoors but looking back, I realized it also gave me the gift of self-reflection.
When you reach the age of 30, there is an increasing pressure, whether external or internal, to get things right– your life, your love, your self. But that’s not how it works, I’ve read articles about this. No one knows what they are doing, really. This thought kept me grounded.
Since I was a kid, writing has helped me make sense of my emotions and my experiences. Even without formal writing background, I started creating poems inspired by many different moments and people. After two years, I’ve finally finished my second self-published book.
Coming Home is a collection of more than 100 poems and letters that bring to light the painful yet liberating process of turning inwards to reflect and reconnect with our true self. It is a journey of facing our truth as well as our demons masked in our resentment, shame and guilt. This book allows us to look into our own thoughts and makes us ask the hard questions. By making sense of our experiences, we can rise above our self-inflicted pain and self-imposed limitations. It is about healing from our past, from heartbreak, and dealing with social pressure while learning to fully accept ourselves.
Trivia: Coming Home also features few poems written in Tagalog dialect, as inspired by the reintegration of the author to her local language after living in another country.
Here is a glimpse of what Coming Home is all about.
“We are here to heal
From the past
To heal by finding our truth
And standing in our power
To face our darkness the same way
We embrace our light
Not forgetting that we are a summation of both.
This is a journey inwards.
This is all about coming home
to our true self.”